Tuesday, March 21, 2006

CPR

I have a new definition of a good time. Going to a CPR class with 17 guys from the construction trades. At times inappropriate but otherwise a genuine good time. I feel a little sorry for the instructor but he seemed to enjoy us. Don't worry, I am medically trained and I can help.

Monday, March 20, 2006

Dreamer

Have you ever NOT dared to dream about something? I have. I have something I haven't dared dream about this since I was a little kid. Something that seemed so far fetched I quit dreaming about it. Never quit thinking about but definately quit dreaming about it.

Now a glimmer...a sliver of hope. I find myself scared to dream about it again though. Its something I don't want to feel a let down with. So I sit here hoping, dreaming, wanting to see. Will it happen? Will it be what I expect?

All this typing about dreaming got me thinking of a Supertramp song. No idea why it popped in my head, it really has nothing to do with me other than dreaming.

Dreamer, you know you are a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said dreamer, you're nothing but a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said "Far out, - What a day, a year, a laugh it is!"
You know, - Well you know you had it comin' to you,
Now there's not a lot I can do

Dreamer, you stupid little dreamer;
So now you put your head in your hands, oh no!
I said "Far out, - What a day, a year, a laugh it is!"
You know, - Well you know you had it comin' to you,
Now there's not a lot I can do.

Well work it out someday

If I could see something
You can see anything you want boy
If I could be someone-
You can be anyone, celebrate boy.
If I could do something-
Well you can do something,
If I could do anything-
Well can you do something out of this world?

Take a dream on a Sunday
Take a life, take a holiday
Take a lie, take a dreamer
dream, dream, dream, dream, dream along...

Dreamer, you know you are a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said dreamer, you're nothing but a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
OH NO!


I am tired of dreaming. I want action...I want results...but what if it isn't what I expect and leaves me wanting more, but there is no more. How will I react to that? I want this so badly it brings tears to my eyes when I think about what I have missed and begin dreaming again. I don't understand the why's of what happened...I probably never will on this earth.

I just want to see my brother.

Monday, March 13, 2006

Bad Dogs

In one week we have lost a loaf of bread, a dozen and a half Sugar Cookies, a 5 lb. bag of dog treats, and today 2 dozen chocolate chip cookies. Natasha just called me at work to tell me she left for less than an hour and came back to find all the chocolate chip cookies that were on the back of the stove gone. I am baffled...not sure if I have an aerobatically trained beagle or the two of them figured out what synergy is and how working together they can accomplish much more than what they can do alone. Did I mention they are beagles...20 lbs...13" tall? I am seriously thinking about setting them up so I can try and video tape their display of aerobatics. This is nuts.