Dreamer

Have you ever NOT dared to dream about something? I have. I have something I haven't dared dream about this since I was a little kid. Something that seemed so far fetched I quit dreaming about it. Never quit thinking about but definately quit dreaming about it.

Now a glimmer...a sliver of hope. I find myself scared to dream about it again though. Its something I don't want to feel a let down with. So I sit here hoping, dreaming, wanting to see. Will it happen? Will it be what I expect?

All this typing about dreaming got me thinking of a Supertramp song. No idea why it popped in my head, it really has nothing to do with me other than dreaming.

Dreamer, you know you are a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said dreamer, you're nothing but a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said "Far out, - What a day, a year, a laugh it is!"
You know, - Well you know you had it comin' to you,
Now there's not a lot I can do

Dreamer, you stupid little dreamer;
So now you put your head in your hands, oh no!
I said "Far out, - What a day, a year, a laugh it is!"
You know, - Well you know you had it comin' to you,
Now there's not a lot I can do.

Well work it out someday

If I could see something
You can see anything you want boy
If I could be someone-
You can be anyone, celebrate boy.
If I could do something-
Well you can do something,
If I could do anything-
Well can you do something out of this world?

Take a dream on a Sunday
Take a life, take a holiday
Take a lie, take a dreamer
dream, dream, dream, dream, dream along...

Dreamer, you know you are a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
I said dreamer, you're nothing but a dreamer
Well can you put your hands in your head, oh no!
OH NO!

I am tired of dreaming. I want action...I want results...but what if it isn't what I expect and leaves me wanting more, but there is no more. How will I react to that? I want this so badly it brings tears to my eyes when I think about what I have missed and begin dreaming again. I don't understand the why's of what happened...I probably never will on this earth.

I just want to see my brother.